“Out of Gas”
“Now the Lord said to Samuel, ‘You have mourned long enough for Saul. I have rejected him as the king of Israel, so fill your flask with olive oil and go to Bethlehem. Find a man named Jesse who lives there, for I have selected one of his sons to be my king.’”
1 Samuel 16:1
After running on empty for months, my doctor ordered me to the coast of Kenya for critical rest. Besides believing a lie that I had to please everyone, pride had pushed me to be perfect, act perfect, and fix everyone else who wasn’t perfect! Fear of disappointing people had driven me beyond my limits, and yet I proudly forced myself to keep going--“I can do this!”
Out of gas, I sat all alone grieving as I realized I had worn myself out! Then God sent my dear husband to give me this scripture--you have mourned long enough! Prophetically Ron said, “It’s time to move on to a new kind of life.”
I knew to live differently would require action on my part. So, on August 19, 2002 my conversation with God began, “I choose to stop mourning over my past!” I then confessed my fear and pride and the sin of trusting myself instead of trusting Him. Of course, God forgave me immediately, but I lingered long with Him that day, pleading for help to live free of my fears, according to HIS Word.
Perhaps like me, you also mourn over mistakes WAY too long. Tomorrow I will discuss more incites God shared with me that day--how to stop running on fumes of the past and instead keep running to the Pump…